January 26, 2023 I dreamt about Married Man last night. I thought I was over wanting redemption from Jeff’s Wife. Maybe not. I was in Jeff’s Wife’s kitchen, leaning against the counter. His Wife registered my presence. She looked at me, looked away, and her lip curled in disgust. She…

January 23, 2023 I drove to Portland for my consulting job yesterday. Often, when I’m doing that hour and a half drive, I’ll be on the phone with a friend. Yesterday, it was Adrian. Adrian met someone. They had awesome chemistry, he believed. They spent some time together, had a…

Spirit is my rock, my salvation, my eternal supporter and comforter. When She calls my name, I respond, “Hineni. I am here.” She asks many things of me. She lays requests quietly on my heart. More often than not, I respond, “Hineni. I am here.” I pray to Her, “Use…

And just like that, it’s over. No more boyfriend. I’m trying to figure out how I feel. I keep comparing it to how I felt about Don when that ended. So not very long ago. This feels a lot different, and I’m trying to figure out why. …

February 12, 2021 Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, I spent the day in bed. That hasn’t happened in months. I couldn’t stop crying. I’d cry and then sleep. I’d wake and then cry. There is no explanation for this when it happens. It hasn’t happened in a while. …

January 7, 2023 I’m on the cusp of something really big and really great but it might not be what I thought it was. I met someone, someone really special. And things were going well, well, they’re still going well. The direction has changed. …

December 31, 2022 I have a boyfriend this New Year’s Eve. It’s been years, decades since I’ve said that. I’m trying to remember back. Ya. Decades. I wouldn’t ordinarily call any man a boyfriend. I don’t like that term, it’s not safe. My last boyfriend, who was not really my…