And now for something completely different…

October 10, 2022

I figured out some things this morning. Amazing how my mind works, how Spirit works, bringing truths to my consciousness just in time, right on time.

Several times a day, I think of something funny or hear something interesting and my first impulse is to text Don. Even though I’ve recognized it’s not wise to always share for a while now, I’ve allowed my impulse to operate unchecked. This morning, I finally acknowledged what I’ve known for a long time; texting Don is a way of keeping him attached because he always responds. Maybe not immediately, but that was never his pattern before so there’s no difference there. But he consistently acknowledges my communications.

He doesn’t respond out of obligation; he responds out of commitment to growing the friendship. He responds because he knows how important it is to me to be heard. Because I love him, I no longer desire to insert myself as a frequent and routine part of his day. We don’t have that kind of relationship any longer.

I want Don to be free to focus on what is right in front of him. He is highly leveraged; he only has time and energy to devote to a finite number of people. I don’t want to compete for his time and energy, primarily because I don’t want him to consider me an obligation. I especially don’t want him to resent…