H! After now I'm hopping on the bandwagon here and reading the comments on your piece. I must caution you, no one knows the future. I don't advocate a relentlessly sunny attitude, but you can't assume the future will be dire either. None of us knows the future. Sit with all of this. And get a counselor. Hugs and hugs and more hugs. You can do this. You are doing this. One foot in front of the other.