I write a lot about my life, and my loves, and assorted related topics. I see places where I contradict myself. In one post, I'll say that I loved my married lover like I've never loved before. In another, I'll explain love had little do with our affair. It was about escape (and selfishness). I struggle with that. But I don't want to be dualistic in my thinking, so perhaps it a good thing? The ability to hold paradox in the mind is an admirable trait. And perhaps this comment has little to do with the point of your piece. It's just me being triggered to admit my writing may appear hypocritical at times... Which is a great fear of mine.