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If I never received any validation for who I truly am, if I never received any support at all, would I have the courage to be this Coco?
February 25, 2019
I drank yesterday. I wasn’t intending to. Well, I probably was intending to. It wasn’t so very bad. I was home by 7:30, slept until about 3 this morning. Now I’m up drinking tea and eating toast. Best remedy.
I went mad with the texting at the bar. I do that. But I went mad and open and out there with my two good friends, men friends, that I’ve known for 14 years. I may just have gone too far. I’ll find out. But I may just have gone too far.
I had a long conversation with my niece, Paisley, about it. She was in the text group. She knows everything that went down. That woman is so smart! I want to be like her when I grow up. She is endlessly supportive of me and the transformation I’ve undergone since moving to Louisville. She encourages me to just keep being me and keep living real. She tells me to embrace the becoming of me.
I wonder if we really have the option to be anything we truly aren’t. Even when we’re attempting to reign ourselves in, that is still a part of who we are. Even when we’re not trying to be “the real me”, we are being the real me.
