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Maddening. But intriguing.
August 11, 2024
Let’s revisit the breakup. This is a lovely piece. David and I are still friends, but its very difficult. The man drives me to drink. He’s my Uncle Walter; an interesting but incredibly odd, eccentric man. We are so different. And that thing about opposites attract is just not true. But the thing about David, is, he fights hard for this friendship. I appreciate that. I truly do. And he is interesting and incredibly odd and eccentric, and I find those qualities intriguing. Maddening. But intriguing.
May 27, 2023
Saturday Night
It’s the second weekend I have not spent with David in months. In fact, we’ve only missed perhaps three weekends in our nearly eight months.
I miss those days leading up to when I knew I would see him again. I miss our weekend routine, going to Trader Joe’s Saturday morning. David working the NYT crossword Sunday mornings while I made bead jewelry. Our Sunday afternoons at one of his favorite dives, him drinking Rainier’s and me drinking lemon drops. I miss “us”. Whatever “us” there was. Which I now doubt existed. But I’m feeling sorry for myself this evening. It’s easy to visit the notion it was all a lie. It wasn’t.
It’s easier and easier to look back over the weeks and months and see where the physical intimacy waned to nothing…
