My theology is in flux. Serious flux.
November 28, 2024
It’s Thanksgiving. I’m supposed to be thankful. Meh... I’m pretty much estranged from my family, I’m shunned. I have a relationship with my mom, tenuous, but ya, still there. And I’ve got loving supportive cousins all over the country, so I do have family. Plus my chosen family, my supportive, always loving, unconditionally accepting friends. I’m alone today, but I’m not particularly lonely. I’m making jewelry and plugging away at an outline for my Intro to Theology final paper. It’s tough. It’s tough to face the demons. It’s good. It’s what I’m in seminary to do. But it’s tough.
Here is a draft of the introduction to my paper.
INTRODUCTION
To begin, I must emphasize that my theology is in flux. Serious flux. I am heavy into my own faith deconstruction journey. Since embarking on this quest, the biggest change in me has been my ability to lean into the fact there is much more randomness in life than I used to feel comfortable acknowledging. I used to believe everything happened for a reason, that God is in complete control of everything. But knowing who I know God to be, and in dealing with the problem of evil, there’s no credibility to the concept of God as sovereign, and so I reject that attribute.
