Now, I just a smile as I gaze upon her and remember how brave she was.
March 23, 2024
David,
I can’t believe I didn’t just walk away and keep on walking. Perfect out. But I came back for four more months of pain and disappointment.
I wanted it pretty bad. Did I want you as bad as I wanted “it” (something meaningful, something long-term)? Yes, I think so. Do I now? No. Not now that I see the truth of you.
Do I even want “it” (something meaningful, something long-term) any longer? Unfortunately, no. Not in the least. But it’s still heartbreaking to remember that pain. Am I angry with you, specifically you? Unfortunately, yes. Yes, I am. I hope it stops soon. I hope I don’t have to be angry with you much longer.
At least I can drive by Joan, now, and not have it stab me in the chest. Now, I just a smile as I gaze upon her and remember how brave she was.
Coco
