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The Fundamentalist Christian Mindfuck — Part II
Before you proceed, please be aware this is a very difficult read about the effects of spiritual abuse and childhood sexual abuse.
June 3, 2023
I’ve thought a lot about what should be in Part II and chose to give myself time as the content worked itself through and began to write itself out in my mind. That is my process. And no matter how many times I wonder what I will say, I always end up having something to say. There is always something triggering, some event or some information which makes it imperative I sit at my laptop and get it all out. The revelations, the epiphanies, the content always comes, just as sure as one day follows the next.
Nothing is hidden in the end, with me. It all comes boiling up and out. I often wonder if that’s a good thing, or if it’s more harmful to sense it, to recognize it, to acknowledge it and to then be forced to push through the pain of reliving it. Are these horrors better left just beyond knowing in the far recesses of my conscious mind? Today, re-experiencing the pain of spiritual abuse, psychological abuse, physical abuse, and sexual abuse, I really don’t know the answer to that question. Today, it’s rather all a bit too much to bear. And yet, I will bear it. And I will push past it. I always do, just as sure as one day follows the next.
