This is beautiful. I'm sorry it brought you so much pain. I learned so much from my married man. I often say I could not have learned the things I learned from anyone else under any other circumstances. There are no accidents, there are no coincidences. We still have choice, it is not all written in the stars. We still must deal with the ramifications of our choices. But he woke you up to truth and now you're getting help. No affair is ever all bad or all good. It all rests in the in between.